The RMS Titanic

Just caught the recently 3D remastered version of Titanic with le girlfriend.
It was a good way for her to finish off the long vacation, and at the same time, nice for me to patch stuff up with her.

After all, the rough patch we had hit in the week earlier was partially my fault. In that sense though, watching the best romance film -in my book- made me think about my relationship even more.

My girlfriend is a anomaly to most of my friends and parents. To them, she is nothing like me, they find her completely incompatible to my character. However, I still chose to pursue her affections and make the relationship work out.

She is a sentimental girl...and I do love her very much. While I am not going to say that I will ALWAYS love her, or that I am going to marry her...I promised her my heart for as long as the relationship lasts.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

I am glad to have found love in my life...and I will do my utmost to bring love into her life as well.

Notes to self

Thou shall remember your month-sary with the girlfriend, lest you get into constant fights and continue wondering what the hell went wrong! haha.

I Fear...

...inadequacy. I'm scared that I will be judged for my flaws and for what I cannot do.

I often wonder how my peers see me...what they say behind my back. I'm afraid that one day, my darling girl will wake up to find that I am no longer the man that she fell in love with.

I fear that one day...being Me, just isn't good enough anymore. That living life contently is no longer enough.
I was raised a simple child...with simple needs. I just hope life works itself out, cuz for the love of me, I still feel lost.

I am torn between my duty as eldest son, as a boyfriend, a mentor, a student, a friend.

I have so many paths ahead...and I am so lost right now. I just can't figure it out.

I Am...

...back to blogging. If any of my friends stumble across this blog, they know it's me. But here, I am posting my thoughts...just to keep the sanity intact.

Life has changed so much since I entered poly and just decided to live life as it is.

I'm attached now...to a young lady whom I love very much. Though I may sometimes give her a hard time because of my harsh language and apparent lack of empathy...I would never wilfully hurt her.

I've risen up to become one of the most influential members of my school's martial art community. And I've achieved most, if not all my goals that I had set out to accomplish all those years ago.

Now I'm on the verge of embarking on my NS life...but I still find myself, searching for answers...pushing for excellence in some phantom activity whose true meaning I haven't quite discovered.

Life is going on...so this is my story.